I can’t believe it myself
This would be my third article of the day. In fact, I wrote & published in the last 3 hours.
Why am I having a sudden inspiration, energy, the flow to write and publish on Medium? Especially after almost 2 years!
Where is this blind courage coming from? How am I even able to accomplish this? How is that the words are flowing automatically without any least amount resistance?
I don’t know. Really.
I just felt like I needed to get it out of my system. I just had the feeling to write. Maybe I was inspired by an article I read earlier and that lead to cascading of events. I got a like to the article before — maybe that’s motivating me to write.
I still don’t know.
Maybe I’m not trying to perform. I’m not trying to impress. I’m not even trying to be read.
I’m just writing. I’m letting the words out as I feel. There seems to this direct connection between my head and my fingertips. I am just allowing it to be dictated by it.
I’m still preplexed.
Why didn’t it happen before? Why couldn’t mutter up that flow/ inspiration or whatever damn thing it might be, when I actually needed it? I could’ve had at least the courage to garner some freelancing clients if shown some talent for writing.
But I’m scared as hell, as I don’t know if this muse would even be alive tomorrow. Well, I don’t even know if I would be able to make it to the end of the article and have it published.
Yup! I’m not editing. That’s helping.
I’m writing directly on Medium. That’s helping.
I’m not trying to impress anyone or structure my entire thesis. That’s helping.
I’m just writing for myself. Just letting the words flow out.
How the hell is it happening? But is it even useful? Should I be even doing it? Would it even help anyone if they read it? Why even am I wasting time writing while I maybe better off doing something else?
I don’t know.
But I just have to get it out of the system.
But should I even publish it and add to the noise of content that’s already out there? Or worse waste the time of the person who’s reading, betray the reader who think there’s some hidden gem in these words?
I’m don’t know at all.
Is this even a form of writing? A genre?
Memoir writing… I have heard of it. Is it possible for me to employ the use of that writing style where by sharing that which deeply personal to me, be of any help to who reads it.
Paraphrasing Carl Jung — that which is deeply personal is universal.
A typical copywriting lesson would be to use ‘you’, than ‘I’. That I need to define the audience whom I am writing to. That I need to understand their problems and offer a solution for it.
But I define memoir writing as being on the other side of the spectrum. In fact, there would be more ‘I’s. That I would be writing more personal stuff than addressing any specific set of audience. That I would make no attempt in helping anyone, except to share my story. If anyone at all, finds the writing useful, that’s a bonus.
I hope to write more such memoirs from my personal writing. I hope to share my own stories, so that at least those like me feel seen and heard. That they’ll be resonate with the pain & anxiety & confusion I’m going through. Maybe even in the process, help themselves out.
If that’s the case, what else can I write for!
So shall I then continue writing… So shall I then hit publish.